Thursday, September 24, 2009 @ 10:35 PM

These past few weeks haven't been really nice. Ever since school started, I feel so stressed out. I don't know why I'm putting myself through all these hard classes when they won't be a use for me when I got to college. I've got my mind set to go to an art school and major in graphic design or advertising ever since I was 11 or 12 ... but why am I taking these hard classes like Physics and Chemistry II? And taking honors classes when I can breeze through advanced classes. I feel like I"m doubting myself about my future. What if I don't get accepted into an art school ... what plan will I have to fall back on? Accounting? Business? BORING.

Yesterday, I got my Physics test back ... FAIL. I feel so stupid. That test was suppose to be really easy. Alot of people go really good grades, and when my teacher give me mine, I just felt so ... I don't even know how to describe it.

*SIGH* Today was kind of a relief, to stay at home and rest. Maybe I got sick because I'm overworking myself. It was good to just not have to stay focused constantly like I have to at school. I'm kind of hoping I won't have to go to school again tomorrow, but I'm also dreading the work I have to make up for just ... one day of absence. So two days will be even worse. ==